Self-Advocates Speak Up About Sex

Members of Green Mountain Self-Advocates in Vermont held a discussion group about sexuality to share their thoughts and experiences. Here are their candid responses to a number of questions about the messages they received about sexuality over the years and why they think sexuality education is important. 

This is a record of the conversation as it occurred. In some places, they respond to one another, as well as to the questions. Their real names have not been used at their request.

Who first explained sex to you?

• Roy: My parents, then my friends, in a much, much more detailed discussion.
• Amber: I learned about sex in a sex education class by watching a movie in school, in 4th or 5th grade, actually. I was mainstreamed.
• Rebecca: I have no idea. In school, it was like child development class, or I want to say maybe in 6th grade, we watched a movie. I don’t know if it was about sex, but I think it was about reproduction.
• Julie: My Mom did talk to me. It was hard for her, and it was kind of awkward for me.
• Molly: My grandma talked to me about sex. I don’t know why. It was awkward, though.
• Elizabeth: I got the talk from my brother. It was awkward and embarrassing, but it was helpful.
• Justin: I got the talk from my cousin. He said this is what it is; now go do it.
• Gabrielle: Seriously, I’ve never gotten the talk.
• Molly: I’ve seen having sex on TV.
• Justin: Go on the Internet, and you can find it. You watch any channel on TV, and you can see it. It is on soaps.

What were the messages you got about sex from adults growing up?

• Jennifer: Don’t have sex. And I agree with them. Don’t have sex. You will get pregnant and die. My parents would say, “Ou, ou, gross, sex.”
• Andrew: You’re not ready to have sex.
• Gabrielle: Make sure you are protected before having sex.
• Andrew: You can’t handle having sex.
• Molly: My favorite one is, don’t have sex until you get married.
• Justin: You are not financially stable.
• Clara: Like, if a guy has a disease in his body, you have to be careful of that.
• Amber: From the sexuality class I took last year, I learned to come right out and say it – “get tested” – because you don’t know what is out there.
• Ida: You can get AIDS and HIV. When I was in 6th grade, we did a unit on AIDS and HIV. The best way to avoid that is abstinence, not to have sexual intercourse. They did it on HIV, Ryan White, and hemophilia.
• Rebecca: Actually, I was told if I kissed somebody, I would get pregnant.

Did you get any positive messages?

• Roy: That it was okay and natural.
• Kevin: My parents always told me it is a great thing, but be careful with it.
• Andrew: That it is fun.
• Elizabeth: My aunt told me it was refreshing.
• Henry: If you have sex, do it behind closed doors. Make sure they lock, and nobody can come in.
• Ida: Puberty is part of becoming an adult.
• Rebecca: Yes, no one explained puberty to me. I had to learn it by myself.
• Ida: Especially for some of us for whom it was a surprise, and we got it early. My period came early, and I said what is this crap?
• Rebecca: Mine happened in a movie theater. I went into the bathroom and I said what is this mess?
• Clara: I read this book about becoming a woman when I was young. It talked about your feelings and your body.
• Adam: Looking back on the messages I got… Wrap your dick.
• Jennifer: I don’t get it. (Someone explained it meant putting a condom on your penis).
• Adam: One that I got that was really helpful was sex is more than just intercourse.
• Andrew: It is not all about sex.

Did you get any positive messages, like you look really attractive, hot, you’re sexy?

• Adam: Not as much in high school.
• Henry: Not really.
• Molly: This guy tried to pick me up and said I was good-looking. And I don’t think I am good-looking.

How did you feel about the messages you got?

• Molly: It felt like I was a kid. I am 23 years old, and I can do whatever the hell I want.

Did you ever notice if the messages you got differed from those given to your sisters or brothers?

(A resounding yes! Even from people who had been quiet up until this time.)

• Justin: Just because I have a disability, it doesn’t mean I can’t have a normal relationship.
• Molly: I know my sister and brother got the talk. They don’t treat me like a normal human being.
• Amber: That is because you have a disability, and they think you are not.
• Elizabeth: I can tell you, nobody is normal in this world.
• Andrew: What is normal?
• Justin: It is a dial on your washing machine.
• Andrew: Normal is just being yourself. 

When people talk to your brothers and sisters and not you, what message does that give?

• Gabrielle: They wanted me to learn it on my own.
• Ida: They want to shelter you, protect you.
• Jennifer: All they say is, “No, don’t do it.” Thanks for helping me.
• Justin: They want to save you and shelter you. They want to be the momma and poppa bear.

What was the most important thing you learned about sex from adults when you were growing up?

• Elizabeth: Wait until you are married for the first time.
• Gabrielle: If you want it, use protection.
• Clara: Find a good guy. Choose the right one, and don’t do it spur of the moment.
• Adam: Sex is more than intercourse.
• Andrew: Make sure you are ready for it, ready for the responsibility.

What do you wish adults would’ve told you but didn’t?

• Gabrielle: I probably would have waited if I had known everything I know now.
• Ida: I wish they had given me an introduction to puberty. 
• Adam: The only thing I can think of that I would have wanted to learn at an earlier age is what a vasectomy is. I don’t have other regrets because people did talk to me about 90% of it. I got my information from a special ed class. But other kids were jealous of me because of the information I got. It was better than the regular classes, which were just about diseases, that’s it.
• Roy: The opposite of what they told me. They told me, “Don’t do it,” “Be careful,” and “Keep it in your pants.” Instead of making it vague with one-phrase sentences, say, “It is okay.” It kind of gives more of an explanation.

Why do you think people with disabilities need sexuality education?

• Roy: So we can learn to have healthy relationships.
• Rebecca: So we are able to make informed choices.
• Elizabeth: So we can pick the right person.
• Adam: For help with the toughest part of the relationship, making it last.
• Gabrielle: So we can be safe.
• Andrew: Because we all have desires/needs, and that’s okay.
• Clara: To get the correct information.
• Kevin: To get resources/tools to make healthy sexual choices.
• Roy: So that people know their rights.
• Molly: So people with disabilities don’t put themselves in bad situations.
• Julie: So we will know how to protect ourselves.